So, if anyone is looking at this profile, and wondered what happened to it, here is the story:

I lied. I lied to you. I lied to myself. I lied to my wife. More importantly, I lied to my two beautiful children. I therefore apologise to everyone. There are always three sides to a story. Mine, the other party, and then the truth. My version is that my wife is not interested in any action. This frustrated my so much, that I ended up on the internet. If for this reason you think I am pathetic and a loser, your wrong, for doing this I was a pathetic loser.

Anycase, as I sleep with my two year old, I woke up this morning next to him and asked myself: "Where is all of this going?". Luckily, I haven't physically cheated my wife yet (although emotionally I have). I then realised the persons losing are first of all the ladies on this website. I was not honest with you. Secondly, my wife pays for my selfishness (yes, she is cold,and disinterested in some action (we didn't have any romantic interaction for over a year)) and this is something that I will need to learn to deal with. The biggest losers, though, are my two adorable kids.

I think most of us just want to feel that we are loved. So this morning, I realised that, maybe I need to rekindle an old love relationship that I neglected over the years. Maybe, I should pick up that old Lovebook that is gathering dust on my table next to the bed. There is Someone special, that loves me eternally. The best of all, this Person not only loves me, but everyone on this website, actually everyone in the world. So although God does not like what I have done, He loves me, for He is The God of Love. And although I still feel guilty, I know that I am forgiven. My own self does not want to believe this, but the Holy Spirit tells me so, and therefore I believe it.

So tonight, with all the hot action going on in the chatroom, I will not be here. I will read that old Love Story again, and hopefully some of you will do it with me. I am going to work on my family relationships, but most importantly, I am going to work on my relationship with Jesus.

This was really a painful experience for me (although, it started of what seems to be very exciting), and I think there are others who feel the same. If anyone wants to talk to me about the eternal Lovestory, you can still contact me on jameswest197721 at . Hopefully, this will plant a seed in maybe one other person that sits in the same boat as me

Jesus' Love

PS (What really started me evaluating everything, was Pieter Enslin's talk on Kyknet on Wednesday Morning. I encourage you to look up ALS (Alberton Lewens sentrum) and do more research)

Would be interesting to see if this profile is going to be deleted, hope it plants a seed in someone before it is deleted ...