All our lights are off and its dead quiet in the late hours of the night and I'm smoking my last cigarette at the front door as I've never smoked inside as hubby doesnt smoke but its my only forbidden pleasure that he allows, but outside or late nights through secutiy gate. He's started watching a Foreign Netflix movie with curious lesbian innuendos but I couldn't follow with suntitles and wanted to see more skin. Im wearing his white T-Shirt that hardly covers my hips. There's no moonlight and so dark and quiet and eerily scary that its unsafe just standing at front door during LOCKDOWN and there's still crime, anybody could see! As I deeply pull my last drag on the Pall Mall Red ... I'm always promising that I going to quit even more so because of the LOCKDOWN. I stare further across the front lawn to the 6ft wall to across the road to opposite sidewalk and in the shadows under the oak tree I catch an intermittent glowing red ember of cigarette being smoked by a dark silhouette. I try focus my vision and make sure but I'm frozen in fear and and surprised that instead of being afraid its sort of exciting that he's watching me.. I lean my hands through the gate and flick my cigg in that direction. I keep my arms extended throught gate holding my hands together as if I'm locked there. Im leaning forward and my boobs begin to hang freely with my nipples only gently rubbing against white the cotton T-shirt, they hard I slowy rock back and forth feeling the rhythmic sway of my breasts against the material. Im loving the sensation back and forth and my T-shirt is moving up over over my hips and buttocks. I love the feel of the cool breeze on my inner thighs and vagina but more so the feel of his eyes on me. I can feel them and I know its not the first time either. Ive subconsciously felt that several times somebody has been Peeping Toming me except to night I'm making it worth my while. I straighten myself up knowing I'm exposing my whole mound to who ever is also watching I cant stop myself as I accidentjy let out a deep sexy moan as I'm so turned on by the thought I'm being watched.. He mustn't ever know that I know I'm being watched. I twist nipple center my thoughts and to feel the pain.. I don't like pain but this is making me extremely horny...and alive...my kinky thoughts race as I fantasize. I pinch my other nipple cupping my breasts. My thoughts race to my fantasy that he's getting closer each night and I mistakenly forget to lock the trellidoor one night and nexy thing he's on me in a flash. He pins me to the open gate as I'm trying to hold him back by pushing back against him. Not wanting him inside but I feel his bulging penis against my buttocks... OMG No..No...NO!!!! OH Fuck HELP!! I want to scream but I cant as he blocks my mouth. Instead I feel this huge throbbing thing trying to force its way to my centre and I hate myself because instead of resisting, YES! YES!! I'm helping him fit into me and wow like a well lubricated part he's deep in me all the way. I cant control my body as I'm so wet. I feel his hand grab my throat. I hate being choked or anything around my neck... I fear it, hate it. I get panicky but they tighten on my wind pipe...Im in total fear and confusion of fight or flight , I begin to get claustrophobic as I can't help myself but I hang onto the gate bars for dear life. Suddenly I reslize I'm meeting his thrusts into me with as much force as his pounding me. I can't control myself as my left leg starts to uncontrollable nervously shake and quiver... All of a sudden he releases my throat and I suck on oxygen and simultaneously my core begins to tighten and release building up as he's manhood is ramming the back wall of my vagina, it's my G-spot ... I arch my back and oh my god im loosing it as my legs uncontrollably shake and I'm on my tip toes. My stomach tightens and spasms begining moving down to my core in anticipation of his warm ejaculate about to enter me... Fuck... fuck... I feel a tap open in me as a gush of fluid squirts out of me and down my legs on to the tiles. I orgasm so hard I collapse on to my knees in my own squirt... SUDDENLY I FEEL HIS HOT CUM HIT ME FULL FORCE ON MY BUTTOCKS , BACK AND INTO MY HAIR.. ITS HOT AND HEAVY AS IM KNEELING THERE ON THE TILES AND I LOVE THE FEEL AS IT COOLS DOWN ON ME.. I FEEL BEHIND ME FOR HIM AND ONLY FIND HIS COCK BUT ITS GETTING SMALLER IN SIZE QUICKLY AND HE PULLS AWAY AND JUST AS QUICK HE'S GONE. BUT IM SHOCKED AT MYSELF, WHY DID I LIKE IT SO MUCH, TO BE FORCEFULLY SEXED.. Oh MY WORD... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!! I have dark deep thought suddenly. What if there were more than just him, next time..STOP stop no no ...what am I thinking...as I instinctively let my hand slide to my Vagina and I rub myself I slip my two fingers between my labia to feel the difference between the sillky smooth moisture of my wetness and wet non lubricated gush of my squirting. Oh my god I wanna cum again................